100 cups of coffee?

# Chapter 347

I need to pursue and find and accomplish cup of coffee number three. Not wait around until it finds me. Initiative and action are my friends. Cup of coffee number three is the one of the 100 cups of coffee process that we use in one of the orgs I work in, to create contacts and funnels of work for the future. I am terrible at this. All my life my work has come to me, and now that needs to change, has changed, and I must change too. The inertia that comes from this must-happen change is powerful, and so far has been kicking my butt, it is the classic failure to launch scenario and of course this introvert doesn’t want to meet any new folks and certainly doesn’t want to go looking for them. And the wonderful COVID world where we all stayed home is largely ended for most folks and they expect real coffees in a real coffee shop now, instead of a short awkward meeting online, we now have long awkward meetings in person. I am so terrible at getting this started. Genuine curiosity is what I need most and lack the most.

Genuine curiosity gets you into people’s lives and dramas and draws you right in and the time flies. I have felt this so little in the last decade as to be non-existent. My curiosity burned out and I have no idea how to relight it. I mean who wants to sit here for the next 9.5 years and wait for “retirement” to arrive? Seriously, that is what it feels like many days, and that is on me and me alone. I have great choices in front of me and I can choose to choose or choose not to choose one or more of these great choices or settle for far less. But yes that sounds so big and overwhelming and I haven’t gained any traction with those size decisions the last two and a half years, so maybe I just need to focus on the third cup of coffee?